Never Been Better!

So I have a lot to tel you guys that read my oh so exciting blog haha. This month has been SO amazing and it's not even over. My birthday is tomorrow and I'm so excited to get all my friends together for dinner!! Anyways here is how my month has been:
January 6th: The Utes had a hockey game up in Logan against BYU. I went up with Chris and Jim (Chris' dad). We go there early and Jim and I went to eat. It's always nice spending some one on one time with Chris' parents. The Utes of course won 12-3, pretty boring game. Except when The BYU players started getting mad and one pushed Chris from behind and CHRIS got kicked out?!?! I was pretty upset as you could imagine haha.
Januray 7th: Chris had another game but this time it was all the way up in Ogden, joy. It was a pretty good game though with ending score 10-4 Utes WIN!! Before the game I went to Iggy's with Chris' parents, it was way fun. I love talking to his mom, when we start talking it always seems like our conversations go on and on, I LOVE IT :) :)
REUNITED: So Chris and I went to my friend Paul's for a party for Sam and Nick! I had so much freakin fun seeing all my friends again. It made me extremely happy that I'm finally at a safe happy place in life! It was great having Chris there with me as well. My life is finally good! I have never been this happy!!

 Great Friends!

Missed him SO much :)

CHRIS LEAVES: Chris left from Wednesday to Monday, it was a good break for us but I missed him like crazy!! While he was gone he played some amazing games!! With four wins they will come home happy :)
GIRLS WEEKEND!!: While Chris was away I had an amazing weekend with my cousin! It was so much fun to get out and do girlie things! On Saturday we went party hoping and just had a blast! On Sunday we had a lazy day and just hung out and talked about life. Monday we worked out and I finally went home.

 AHHH YEAH!

 Living life :)

WELCOME HOME: Monday Chris came home and I was so happy to spend some time with him. I honestly do think that breaks like this in a relationship are always great. That week we hung out whenever we could between school and life!
Thursday: Once again another hockey game, not complaining haha. I went to this game with Brit and Brody, it was a lot of fun!! Chris lost this game :( 4-1 Colorado State.

 The amazing Britney!

The Handsome Brody!

PERFECT FRIDAY!!!!: I had such an amazing day Friday it's crazy!! Chris was even saying that was one of the best nights we have had together!! Chris had a game that day, at first I was really bugged that his ex was there but it hit me.... It doesn't matter I have Chris and we are happy so good for her that she is still supporting him. Chris made a beautiful goal that day!! They of course won Washington State 16-2 :) After the game Kourtney, Zach, Chris and I went to Chili's where surprise his ex was there. Chris said hey and then came and sat down. He told me that after he order he was going to go back over for a little. I got upset and he decided not to go.... I sat there for a second and decided I was being "That girl" and I didn't want to do that. I trust Chris and I know he cares about me. That's when I turned to him and said he should go say hey and it's totally fine. I think at that moment I finally hit the point in life where I'm not that high school girl that controls her boyfriend. Chris came back after 5 minutes and everything was perfect! I don't care about his ex or her friends, I'm happy they care so much about Chris haha. Chris was so cute that night.... He even told me that he has the prettiest girls in the stands at the games!! Such a sweetheart!!

SATURDAY!: I hung out with Chris most of Saturday it was so much fun. We went shopping with my family! My mom got me a birthday outfit and Chris got me a shirt. He truly makes me happy!!!! They played Washington State again and it was a long game haha. During the third period Chris made a goal looked for me and pointed showing me that goal was mine!! I was so happy to see that, I came home and bragged about it!! That night we went to a hockey party with the team. I made two amazing new friends, Ainsley and Heidi So much fun!! 

Fun people!!

 Such a sweet girl!!

SIMPLY PERFECT: Ah so I have to brag about Chris haha I can't help it!! He is so freakin amazing! We have never been better and I love it. We never fight, we talk about everything and we trust each other. We have been having really long nice talks lately. He has even noticed when I am having a hard time and he will talk to me about it and do everything he can to fix it. I have never been so happy with someone in my life! I hope things stay the same with him! I have a feeling they will. He says the sweetest things to me AHHH Sorry I'm bragging about how lucky I am, I just have to get it out :)

Ending and starting things off right!!

 FISHIN': I love that Chris loves to do outdoorsy things! Being outside is my favorite and to be able to do it with my boyfriend is awesome. Chris and I go fishing as much as we can and I love it. I have gotten pretty good.... I think I have even passed my teacher up :) I'm glad we got to go fishin one more time before the year ended.

BABYSITTING: Chris' nieces came over while Scott and Lisa went out and we helped watch them. They are so stinkin' cute. The both didn't want to go to bed unless Chris and I took them up to bed. I have so much fun playing with them. Chris has got to be the best uncle too! It's adorable :)

NEW YEARS EVE!!: New years eve was such a freakin blast! Chris came and got me early in the day and we went over to Scott and Lisa's (Chris' sister and brother-in-law) to watch the Utes game. The Utes game was a way fun game haha we had recorded it so we didn't have to watch the commercials. While it was recording we played ping pong and pool. When we went to finish the game it started to get really good. Well we there was about 30 seconds left in the game and it stopped recording. We wanted to finish it so we went over to Scott and Lisa's friends house just to finish the last part of the game! We even asked Scott if it would record overtime... He said yes hahaha. After the game the rest of the family came over and we ate an AMAZING dinner Scott made. Yes it was my favorite food STEAK!!! After dinner is when the laughing and games started. I got my New Years Kiss from Chris and it was perfect! I had a great start to the new year.

NEW YEARS DAY:  Chris and I decided to go shooting with Whitney and her man Cameron. It was a lot of fun haha Whitney makes me laugh she is a funny girl. I have a feeling we will be hanging out with them a lot!

CHANGE: So outta the blue I decided that I needed change and the thing I always go to in my hair haha so I cut it. I'm not sure if I like it or it it's just the change that throws me off.

MORE SHOOTING!!: On January second we went shooting again, this time with Mikey and McCall. It was so much fun! This time I got a little more risky with the guns after Chris forcing me. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Both McCall and I thought the same thing "That's huge, no way" but we finally kicked some butt haha. After Shooting we went and got dinner and went back to Chris' house to watch the Avs play and win YAY!!

 BEST DATE: So yesterday Chris took me on an amazing date. I'm so lucky to be dating a guy like Chris. The date started off with Mini Golfing. I'm horrible at Mini Golfing and I always hit my ball way to hard, Chris ended up helping me cheat haha. I even lost my ball in the water but barley got it back haha. After Mini Golf we went to see a movie. We picked Young Adult, we eneded up getting there early and no one else was there. We got bored so we played hide-and-seek in the movie theater!! It was so freakin fun and I won. On the ride home I was in an amazing mood so I played some 80's music and sang and danced for Chris.... Pretty sure he hates my singing but he puts up with it!

I'm so happy to start the year off with Chris and the amazing friends and family I have! This year I know is going to be full of many great memories! I hope everyone had a great end and start!! <3

Christmas Time :)

So this week has been one exciting week full of smiles and tears. Chris' best friend Chase came into town and it was great fun! Him and Chase are some crazy exciting boys :)
While Chase was here we all just hung out and had fun. Chris and I kinda went through a rough patch that week but what couple doesn't. Christmas this year was extremely fun!
 LIGHTS: Chris and I went with Mikey and McCall to Temple Square to see the light and it was a lot of fun. We went to eat before at a yummy place!! I am so lucky to have a boyfriend like Chris :)

 Mikey and McCall!

 :)

My handsome Boyfriend and I!!

  UGLY SWEATER PARTY: We had an awesome ugly sweater party with family and friends. We had drinks and White Elephant. It was a lot of fun to get together for the Holidays and just laugh. Dad won the ugliest sweater but my favorite was for sure Chris' haha.

 Dads awesome sweater!!

 Chris and I all dressed up!

 Cute ugly sweater family!!

 Some friends can last a lifetime!!

What a cute little group!

 CHRISTMAS EVE: On Christmas Eve I just hung out with the family and had Christmas dinner. Payton got to open up her Christmas PJ's and one toy and she loved it. That night we set up her Christmas and it was a lot of fun.

CHRISTMAS DAY!!: I loved having Payton here on Christmas! Seeing her face when she walked into the living room was awesome! I hung out with the family and did presents and then I took off with Chris. Chris and I went to his sister Lisa's for the family party. I love hanging out with Chirs' family, they are so much fun!

I hope everyone had an amazing Christmas I know I did! I can't wait to start the new year on this amazing note! :)

Lucky Girl

Alright off with the drama and on with the good stuff!! So I just have to say I am so lucky, Chris is amazing and treats me amazing!

MALL TRIP!: So Brit and I had a great adventure to the mall to joke around and have a blast. Hanging out with Britney is one of my favorite things to do. I adore the girl :)

GRIZZ GAME FRIDAY: So Chris took me to dinner and a Grizzlies game.... Before the game Chris came over to my place and brought yummy food.  We ate here and then took off to the game. The Grizzlies of course won the game and it was a lot of fun.

UTES HOCKEY! SATURDAY: So this hockey game was extra fun! I went with my two favorite cousins Britney and Livy. The game was against BYU and it was a lot of fun. After the game we went to Mardis for a little and then took of to Adams. We didn't stay long, we ended up leaving and going our separate ways. Chris and I came back to my house for a little.

FAMILY PICTURES SUNDAY: We had family pictures Sunday and it was SO cold haha. Ash did an amazing job on editing and all that fun stuff. She is such an amazing photographer!

 COLT FORD THURSDAY: So I got Chris and I tickets to see Colt Ford, on of his favorite bands. Before the show my amazing Chris took me out to dinner, it was really yummy. We went to the show and were waiting in line for the doors to open when the people in front of us turned and asked if we wanted back stage passes, we of course said yes. We watched the first band play and it was way fun and then we went back to wait for Colt. We went back and met him and he was super nice! I ended up getting way sick but it was still fun! Chris was extremely happy so that's good!! We our tickets signed by him and it was awesome!! I am so lucky to have Chris. I have never been this happy with someone. He treats me so well and we do so many fun things together. I love him very much.

FINALS WEEK: So this week Chris has finals and then he is done with School. He is really stressed about finals and studying like crazy. I know he will do amazing on his tests he is such a smart kid. This week he wants to try and fit me in along with his tests and studying, which is so nice of him. I can't wait for him to be done with school so we can have some real Kenzie and Chris time. I will write you next week and tell you how this week goes :)

Not everyone is perfect!!

Alright so I have some big time venting to do. So some people have been really getting on my nerves! First off I have to say I care about everyone I'm about to talk about in the post I am just extremely mad.

FIRST: Okay so how all this started was my dad got engaged at first I was really shocked about it and a little mad. When kids get mad at their parents what do they do get bugged about it, right? Well I did and I used the excuse of Brandon getting married and it's a little close, but honestly the truth is I KNOW NOTHING about this lady. I'm sure she is a great lady but it would be nice to know who my dad is marrying. After the first day of finding out the news I was completely over it. It honestly doesn't matter I guess.  I wasn't even that mad just a certain someone I know likes to change stories. We had the family over the night we heard about my dad. We talked about it and no one really cared anymore it was done with, at least to us (his kids).
OUTTA NOWHERE!: SO I thought all this was done with it was a few weeks later and no one was talking about it. I was at Chris' all day so I wasn't home to hear about what was going on. I get home and Ash comes out to tell me that all this stupid shit is going on. So I guess my Grandpa Barton got the wrong idea about everything from my mom. Well my Grandpa wrote my dad a PM about how he is trying to do this and that and he needs to do this and that. Then my Grandma finds his DUI mug shot that is about a year and a half old 'LIKES' it and posts it on my moms page.
MIXED STORIES: Well My Grandma and Grandpa said that it was Steve (My uncle) who posted my dads mug shot around. So if it was Steve then that pisses me off even more!! Steve has no right to say or do anything about my dad getting a DUI when he has done SOOO much worse! So my Grandma is saying it wasn't her but I don't get why my Grandpa wrote my dad. I love my grandparents SO much but they need to apologies to my dad. If it really bugged us that bad I would have told my dad.
EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES: So yes my dad hasn't always been the best person but he is trying to fix his mistakes! My dad came down here last year around this time and opened up and said sorry for everything he has done and it meant a lot. Some of the things I found out that he did killed me a little inside and I was very mad at the time. Now when I think about it I think about how much it took to do that and how hard it is to tell people you love the mistakes you made in the past and ask for a second chance. I believe in second chances no matter what, little like mine when I hurt Chris and now he is letting me back into his life, to big where my dad was not the best parent to him really trying now. Yeah I wont forget what he did in the past but I fully forgive him and if his kids can let go of what happened other people should too! They should really leave my dad alone. It seems like they left him alone more when us kids were hurt by him more and now that he is trying he is getting in trouble!! I am not LDS but I do believe in a lot of their moral. If we [freely] admit that we have sinned and confess our sins, He is faithful and just (true to His own nature and promises) and will forgive our sins [dismiss our lawlessness] and [continuously] cleanse us from all unrighteousness [everything not in conformity to His will in purpose, thought, and action].
1 John 1: 9

 DAD: Thank you so much for all that you have been doing the past while! I am so proud of you and so happy for you. I am so sorry that all this is happening. It is not fair to you and I want to say sorry for the way my family has been acting. They are just trying to protect me, when they really don't need to be. I hope you can put this behind us and forget it. You are doing such a good job at the entire parenting thing. There isn't much to do now anyways, I'm the youngest outta us three and I'm almost 21. I love you dad and I can't wait to meet your fiance. 

CLOSING: So I hope all this goes away and everyone says sorry and we can go back to not having drama. I also hope if there were any lies shared during this that they tell the truth. I love all of you so much and I am now letting this entire thing go. SO PLEASE let it go as well!!

Christopher York!!

Here we go! Story Time: Alrighty so I am in the mood to write and I was thinking what should I write about...? Then it hit me my amazing boyfriend. Alright so most of you know Chris and I have been through a lot but what most of you don't know is the truth, you just know the stories. So I am going to share my story, some things I really don't like to share but it's time to get the truth out.
How we met: Alright so in 9th grade I moved into Cottonwood Heights, Brighton High School area. Well I started to go to Church at the new ward and that is where I met Brian Ballard. Brian was on the Brighton Hockey team with Chris. Well Brian and I broke up, that's an entire different story. I started talking to people I met through Brian. I became really really good friends with Mike Brown. Well I knew of Chris just from stories from Mikey and I kinda met him a few times but never really talked to him. Well one day I was at the hospital with my family because my sister Ashleigh had her baby. Well Mikey called me and asked if I wanted to go to a hockey game, of course I said yes because hockey is my favorite thing. Mikey came and got me and Chris was with him. We didn't really talk much just kinda said hi and stuff like that. Well after the game we started talking more and that's when he asked for my number.
Finding out we liked each other: That night Chris texted me and we just started a conversation when it got really good. Chris: So I kinda like this girl. Kenzie: Oh do I know her? Chris: Yeah, really well. Kenzie: Well I kinda like this kid..... The conversation carried on with us joking around forever when Chris finally spilled that he liked me, I was so happy. We continued talking and hanging out as much as we could over the summer.
He finally asked me out!: One day we were hanging out at my house like we always do. He finally told me that he needed to go home now because it was getting late. I walked him to his car, like always. He was acting a little odd but I just ignored it and started saying good-bye, when he finally turned to me and asked if I would be all his. I was so happy I gave him the worlds biggest hug and kiss!! The date was 8-17-07!!
The first while: The first part of the relationship was great! We were always together hanging out with our friends and even just with each other. I went to all of his hockey games and gave him my all. He was always there for me and always giving me the time he could.
Getting rough!: Things started to get really rough. Chris was getting really busy and barley had time for me but he still tried. Things got to a point where if I went to Chris about my problems he wouldn't really listen to me and change the subject. It got to the point where I wouldn't talk to him at all if things where bugging me about us or problems I was having at school. When we hung out we just kinda watched TV or played games but never talked. It was getting really hard on me.
Needed a friend: I really needed a friend to talk to about life and about things with Chris. For some odd reason the person I picked to talk to was Shane Bowthorpe. Shane and I became really close and talked about EVERYTHING! There wasn't anything I couldn't tell Shane and I don't think there was anything he couldn't tell me. Shane and I started hanging out all the time, just as best friends. It was great to have someone there when I needed them.
Mixed up feelings: While Chris was ignoring me and Shane was giving me all the attention in the world I kinda lost myself. Feelings started to get all mixed up. Chris and I started fighting a lot, which we never did. I would go crying to Shane and he would be there for me. This really confused me and I started getting feelings I didn't want with Shane. Shane started to get the same feelings and we both felt awful so we decided to not really hang out anymore. Well one day Chris and I had a really bad fight and I broke up with him. I was really hurt and I called Shane in tears. Shane felt horrible for me and he came over. We both had no intention of anything happening. We put on the TV and the show The Note Book was on. Well I was laying in Shane's arms hurt and Shane was just being there for me. Well the next thing I knew is we kissed. I will not say who kissed who but we kissed.
All down hill!: After that happened things went kinda back to normal. Chris and I got back together and Shane and I kinda stopped talking. Well Things with Chris and I got bad again and I think it was because of the burden I had on me that Chris didn't know about. Well Chris and I were non-stop fighting once again. One night there was a play at Brighton and I wanted to go so I went with Shane. It was just like we were good friends again, until on the way home. He was driving me home and we had another conversation about us liking each other. I was at a point in my life where I felt like crap and hearing Shane say the things he was made me feel amazing and I said somethings back outta heat of the moment. Chris and I broke up once again and Shane and I started to secretly hang out all the time. Shane had taken me to This Is The Place and he gave me his CTR Hockey ring and shared that he really cared about me and it honestly took my breath away and was some of the sweetest things anyone has said to me. We continued to hang out and do little romantic things together. One night I went home and I was texting Chris and it hit me..... I missed Chris and I had messed up big time. All these thought came into my head and I realized who I really wanted to be with and I really loved. I told Shane and he understood and felt the same. Chris and I got back together but things weren't the same with anyone. Shane called me up one day and told me that he couldn't hide what happened anymore and that if I don't say anything to Chris today he will. So I agreed to tell Chris.
Telling Chris: Chris came over that night and I told him I kissed his best friend. Chris didn't want to hear another word. He stormed off, I have never seen Chris so upset, hurt, betrayed and sad in my life. I ran to his car and begged him to listen to me and I was so sorry. He didn't listen to me he just drove away. That night was probably one of the worst nights of my life. I cried and cried. I kept calling Chris until he finally answered. We talked and talked and surprisingly he took me back.
Never the same: Our relationship slowly faded because what happened, Chris and I were never the same. Our love went away. I tried and he tried but there was nothing there. I finally got to the point where I wanted him to move on.
The end... At least we thought: I couldn't do it anymore so I finally broke up with Chris. He moved on and dated this girl Katelin and I moved on and dated Brian Medeiros.
Over the years: Every now and then we would text each other but that was it. His girlfriend didn't like me and he didn't really wanna fight with her so he didn't really talk to me. Chris still crossed my mind every now and then. I did miss Chris but I was happy and he was happy. I grew up a lot over the 3 years but I didn't think that would ever change things with Chris and I.
Seeing him for the first time in 3 years!: One day I was on facebook when outta nowhere I see that Chris has accepted my friend request I sent about 3 years ago, so I got confused and texted him and asked why? We started talking to each other. I still never thought we would be back together. He asked Kourtney and I to go to one of his games. We went and after the game we waited for him to come outta the locker room. Chris came out and my heart honestly dropped. I gave him a hug and I seriously didn't want to let go but I did. That night he texted Kout and I and we went and hung out with him. It was so much fun seeing him be a dork again. We kept going to his games and hanging out every now and then.
Feelings!: I started to realize I had feeling for Chris but I ignored them. We stopped kinda hanging out and I started to date this Kieth kid. Well comes to find out I wasn't the only girl in Kieth's life. Well I asked Chris to hang out and we started hanging out even just us two. One day Chris was talking to me and giving me this look when I outta nowhere I said you can kiss me and he did. My heart stopped and I was so happy. That night I still didn't think we would ever get back together.
Kourtney was right: Kourtney kept saying we are going to get back together and I didn't believe her. Chris and I kept dating and hanging out. One day Chris told me that he needs more time to be official but he is all mine I agreed and told him I was his as well. We kept dating for like a month and a half.
FINALLY: On October 10th he finally asked me out and I was one happy Kenzie! I called up Kourtney right away freaking out. I honestly have never been happier. Things have changed so much between Chris and I. We talk about EVERYTHING and I love it. I know I can always go to him for everything. I know I will never ever hurt him again. Things with him are way to perfect!
LOVE <3: Chris means the world to me and I would never wanna lose him again. I made my mistake and I am so thankful he is giving me another chance. He is so sweet and caring. He tells me every day how much I mean to him and how much he cares about me. He is simply perfect for me! I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend. Some things haven't changed though. I still go to all his hockey games and he is still way busy. He does give me all the time he can and I love it. I am so thankful for him and I hope to never lose him!!

When I'm in his arms ALL my troubles melt away!!

 I laugh and love my hardest when I'm with him!!

 Perfect match!!

 I don't care what anyone else thinks or says! We are happy together :)