Kashton Thomas, our new little monster!!

I gladly welcome little baby Kashton to the world!!

Kashton was born on March 6, 2012 at 12:09 to mommy Ashleigh Lofthouse (Sister), daddy Joe Koontz, and big sister Payton Koontz!! He weighed 8.7 pounds (I won, I said he would weigh 8.8) and he was 19' long! Kashton is a gift to Ash and Joe, the doctors told them that they wouldn't be able to have another baby and they tried for 3 years and finally it happened! Kashton is SO sweet and so sleepy haha. I already love him with ALL my heart and I can't wait to see him grow up. Little Payton is still getting use to not being the only one and having to share the spotlight but she is doing very well and I am very proud of her. The Barton Grandparents are in town for little Kash and it was great to see them, I miss them a lot. I'm so happy that Kashton came so fast and so healthy! I love my new baby Nephew!! 

Learning he is a boy!! So happy I got to be there :)

 Kashton's room is themed, Where the Wild Things Are

"I'll eat you up, I love you so"

Sweet Boy!! 

 Such a good big sister Bug is!!

I love giving him kisses!

 I love him with ALL my heart!

 I can't wait to post more about Kashton! Enjoy your day!!

I sometimes feel the need to brag!

Alrighty so Chris was outta town this last weekend and I asked him to do me a favor. I told him to not call of write me or anything to have a great time with his friends and I will see him at home.Well before he left I told him that I don't think I could see him anymore because he can't open up to me in the way that I need and want. SO I told him to think of that on his long plane ride. He came home Sunday but I didn't get to see him so I wrote him and he got on and we talked. He told me that while he was gone he realized that he needs me in his life and he doesn't want to lose me. This made me really happy but I still wanted to wait to decide if we would be together or not. So on Monday when he came over we didn't really have much alone time but the time we did get we talked. He really opened up to me in way he NEVER has. He shared with me that I'm exactly the type of girl he wants and that he loves just being with me and I make him really happy and he would never want us to end. We didn't get to finish our conversation until Tuesday night, he completely opened up and told me things that I have dreamed about. He shared some of the most amazing things I have never heard from anyone.. As you probably know we wont be breaking up and I honestly don't think we will for a REALLY  long time. I never knew I made him this happy so hearing it was absolutely amazing and I never wanna lose the way I feel right now. I had to share this because I think I am the happiest girl alive! I hope he knows that it's not just me that makes him happy it's him that makes me happy as well! I hope you all get lucky or are as lucky as I am to have someone like Chris is my life. He always turns to me and tells me, "Kenzie, you aren't just my girlfriend you are my best friend and if for some reason we break up I wanna stay your best friend, I never wanna be less than that." That's how relationships should be! Have a great day :)

 Laughing four years ago.....

 Joking Around four years ago.....

 Loving Each Other four years ago...

I am so glad he is mine again so I can share all the things with him that we use to share but have an even stronger true love!! 

Laughing!!

 Joking Around

Loving Each Other!!

  Chris & Kenzie then, Chris & Kenzie now!!

Mellow Yellow!

THURSDAY: So I spent the night with Chris and it was great!! LATER: I had an emotional break down and Sarah came all the way over to give me a hug and make sure I was okay!! She is such a great friend!

FRIDAY: Friday was such a fun day! I hung out with Sarah and we just joked around and had fun. Later we went to Steffan's birthday party! Sarah and I were one of the firsts ones there so we just hung out and started drinking! All of my favorite people showed up and it was such a blast. My ex Brian was there with his new girlfriend and it felt amazing being able to be in the same room as him and not feel a single thing for him! I could careless if he was there or not. It was the first time I had seen him in about a year and it didn't bug me at all, I feel so good about myself! I am so happy I am finally fully moved on!! It's a magical feeling!!

 My handsome Benny Boy!

 Dancing!

 Dancing with the birthday boy!!

 I adore Carly SO much and I made a new friend!

Great Friends!

SATURDAY: Was my sisters birthday! YAY Happy Birthday!!!I had a lazy day and just went over to Jaek's with Sarah! We watched Lady Gaga, smoked hookah and just had a relaxing night!

SUNDAY: We went down to Eagle Mountain for Ash's baby shower/house warming/Birthday party. We picked up Olyvia on the way there so she could come too. The party was a lot of fun!! Olyvia came home with me and later we hung out with Sarah and went to Jaek's again to watch WEEDS have pizza and just chill! 

MONDAY: Livy and I went tanning with Sarah and Jaek and then just went back home to get ready and watch some TV. After we got ready we ran some errands. Chelsea came over and later followed by Chris, we went to the Huka Bar but decided to go back to my house, we picked Ben up at the Lounge!. Chris had to go home and so did Chelsea so Livy, Sarah, Jaek, Ben and I went to eat! The dumb lady took forever with my drink and I was very angry haha. Ben ended up paying for my drink and it was VERY nice of him. Now I am sitting in my bed missing Chris like crazy haha. Well I will write again soon! Have a great day and or night :)

Hockey season over with a BANG!! Or should I say mullet?

Well the season is now officially over and I am SO sad but SO proud!! The Utes won their first game against San Jose but lost the second one to NAU (Northern Arizon) so they will not be going to Florida for Nationals. They still had such a great season though! I know they all learned from this experience and will go even farther next season!!

I am SO very proud of Chris and The Skatin' Utes!! 

The team put on such a fight this year and really stayed on top. 

They have grown so much as a team and I'm sad to say good-bye to some of them.

I know I am just a girlfriend of one of the players 

but I have really gotten to know these boys,

as players on the ice and students off the ice.

I want to say good-bye to this years seniors!

 Josh Carlberg #20,

I couldn't find a picture :(

 Kevin Dieterle # 26,

 Andrew Johnston #7,

 Captain Michael Vrtis #28.

 Thanks for a great season of hockey! 

 I can't wait to see what next years brings the Skatin' Utes!! 

 MULLET!!: Well the boys all decided that they would cut their hair for Cali... Chris came over Thursday night to show me.... This is what Ben did to his hair!! 

-FRONT-

-SIDE-

 -BACK-

While he was away: Alright well why Chris was away I spoiled myself a little haha. I hung out with one of my favorite people Sarah Basso. We went up to Park City for lunch, went tanning, shopping and then to a movie! The next day I went shopping with my amazing mom! I got 9 shirts for $25(Burlington), yeah I'm pretty happy! I also got my bridesmaid dress taken care of so Mal-A-Boo is one less person stress free haha. I had a great weekend and it was a great break from Chris but I did miss him like crazy!! I also dyed my hair a very dark brown. 

New Hair!!

HOME: Chris came over today and we just hung out pretty much all day! I'm glad he is back in home! I have a love hate relationship with him leaving!! I also got to cute his mullet off tonight! It was the first time I have ever done a guy haircut and I think I did a damn good job!! I'm going to miss his mullet..... Ah who am I kidding!!

I really like his hair like this!

 He sure is a babe!!

 

Well I'm off!! Thanks for reading and goodnight :)

Valentines, Hockey and NEWS!!

Okay I'm going to start things off with some GREAT news!! The Skatin' Utes are going to their first ACHA Regional Tournament occurring this upcoming weekend in San Jose, California! Yay, I tell Chris it's because when I date him I'm good luck, Brighton Hockey took state when we were together and now look at the Skatin' Utes! I wish you boys good luck, I know you will kick some booty! If you want to help them out go buy some stuff and help them make their way to San Jose, you can do that at... http://www.universityofutahhockey.com/Apparel.html  They have super fun, nice, cool and cute stuff!! Tee hee

 Such an awesome group of boys!!

Valentines Day: So Chris was packed with homework on Valentines day so we decided to hang out but really celebrate it Sunday. We had a very great dinner made by Mama York!! It was steak (my favorite). I watched Water For Elephants while Chris wrote an essay. Even though we did our own thing, I had an amazing day and I wouldn't have wanted it to be any other way! For Valentines day Chris got me a stuffed Giraffe and a picture frame with us in it from the Colt Ford concert. I got Chris.. Well I can't tell cause it hasn't come yet but I will put pictures of it after he gets it. I'm so happy I have Chris and I got to be with him on the day of love.
Utes VS Aggies: 8-3 loss... BUT Chris made a goal and an assist! Way to go good looking ;)

Starting Line!!

Chris being amazing at the game against Utah State

Utes VS BYU: Well BYU came back for another round.... Let's just say we kicked some butt. It was a really fun game I sat with Maddie and Andy, yes Maddie.... I had a lot of fun though and she is a great girl. The score was 7-1, yeah sorry BYU.. Not really. It was a SOLD OUT game though. I have never been to such a packed game. I borrowed Chris' phone for the game and let's just say some funny things happened Bahahahahaha Oh Ex Girlfriends are a HOOT!! After the game Chris, Heidi, Ainsley, Andy and I went to Betos YUMMM.

 Chris doing his thing

SOLD OUT!!

 Mine and Chris' Valentines Day (Sunday): So Chris decided to take me to the Aquarium because I have been dying to see the cute Otter (SO in-love). We went and we had A BLAST! We got there just in time to see them feed the adorable penguins, I got to pet a Sting Ray, AND we got front row to watch the cute Otters play with each other, I want one! Chris really makes me feel like the most important person when I'm with him, I love it! After that we went back to his house for a VERY fun night. We had dinner with the family (including Lisa and Scott) I got to see my cute girls, Lauren and Kelly! They are so freakin cute and they love me so much. We played games and had drinks! It was such a great night. I love hanging out with Chris' family almost as much as I love hanging out with just him Tee hee!! Later that night we watched What's Your Number, I loved it! Chris know I love romance comedy and he always lets me watch it, cute I know!

 SO CUTE!!

 The kid that makes my life PERFECT!

Happy Love Day :)

NO SCHOOL!!: So Monday Chris didn't have school for once haha. So he decided he wanted to take me out to a movie, such a sweetheart. We decided to go see This Means War, another comedy/romance. It was really good and I liked it. After the movie we went back to his house and hung out with Mama York until everyone got home for dinner. After dinner we just went into the cave and hung out, well I watch TV/took a nap while he wrote an essay... We do that a lot but I like his company so doing anything is perfect with me! We spent pretty much the entire day together and it was amazing. 

Big Plans!!: So I have finally decided what I am doing with my life! I'm going to be a first grade teacher. Today I got everything figured out and I'm going to start school this summer for it!! I'm doing school during the summer to get me caught up on everything, yeah lame I know! I just want to get the ball rolling, so I will do what I need to do.

Heart Skipping Cute: I hope Chris doesn't get mad at me for this but I have to share. So I got on facebook and I saw a message from Chris saying "I have to tell you something....", I freaked out and thought it was bad and this is what he wrote me "I was going to come over after my meeting but then I figured I would come home and try and get some hw done so I could spend more time with you Wednesday and Thursday before I left and I honestly felt sick when I didn't come over. I got this bad butterfly feeling cuz I wasn't going to see you and I almost just had to. Never has happened with anyone else." Wow I know, I am SO lucky AHHHHHH. I just had to share that!! 

Well that's all for today! I will write soon, have such a great night!!

A date in the past!

So I found a really old journal and it dates back to when I first started dating Chris (the first time). I have to read some of the entries!! I'm going to write it word for word... Just keep in mind I was 17 and silly haha :)
May 10, 2008: So much has happened in my life from Zac Bringhurst to Chris York. At the age 15 I finally had my first real relationship with Brian Ballard (ewww) from September 1, 2006 to sometime in March 2007, that's 6 months wasted.. Even though in away I believe it was a good first relationship cause it made me strong... And damaged me, but enough with Brian I really don't care about him sooo moving on to the next. After Brian I dated this kid Brandon Smith, he played for the Taylorsville hockey team. Then I had a thing with Henry Gates and a little thing with Shane Bowthorpe, who you will be hearing a lot. Then I went out with Mike Moffit for like 3 days haha I was a mess with guys and none of them caught my attention. THEN I met Chris York, who right away caught my attention, we started dating August 17, 2007. Chris and I have had a lot of problems in our relationship but over all we work together. I wish I could explain how much he means to me but it would fill the entire book. I will just kinda give you a brief... Well future me a brief haha. First I must say Chris is the most adorable kid, he isn't like anyone else I have ever met. He is so sweet to his family, he helps his mom out, he gets amazing grades and he plays hockey and he is SO amazing at it. I know he will go far, hockey is in his heart and he is so dedicated to it. Chris has the ALL time best personality, he is a dork and he just doesn't care what anyone thinks of him. He isn't one of those dumb fake kids that think they are better than everyone else when they SUCK haha. I know I can tell him anything and I can be myself around him, I don't have to hide who I am. He is really the only person that understands me and my weird ways. Chris is one of those kids that EVERY girl dreams about. I wish I could do a better job at showing him. I'm always thinking about Chris, I feel like a crazy person. I really do feel like I am the luckiest girl to be with the most amazing kid. Well that's about it. -Kenzie-
Anyways: I read that last night and it gave me the biggest smile! Now that we are back together not much is changed on how I feel about him. I also wrote a poem about him right before we broke up.... Please keep in mind this is SO old and I such at writing poems haha!!

I'm laying in my bed

I can't get you outta my head

No matter how hard I try

Or even how much I cry

I always turn to you, cause you're all I need

I just need you to be here with me

I'm sorry for how I've acted

I've just been very frightened

I'm scared from the past, you see

I promise it's not you, it's me

I wish I never hurt you

If only you really knew

I wasn't thinking, neither was he

I wish he would have just let us be

I love you and only you

Do you still love me too?

Or should I give up and walk away?

Please don't let it end this way

I don't feel the love anymore

My hearts just way to sore

The cuts and the scares are way to deep

I even feel the pain when I sleep

I love you Chris I really do

I know you loved me once too

But do you still?

Or does it just kill?

I have so many questions for you

I don't know what you want me to do

Do I just ignore the pain

and let in all the rain?

It seems like you just don't care

I tell you how I feel, but you just wont share

I need to know Chris

Or I just can't do this

Do you still think of me?

Why wont you just see

Chris we're truly meant to be

Or is that just what I think?

Why do we have to grow so weak?

I miss when we use to always laugh

Now it's just a part of the past

I always wonder what it would be like 

If I didn't kiss him that night

Maybe we always wouldn't fight

And maybe we would still have love in sight

I feel it's completely gone

Please just tell me I am wrong

Can we just fix all this

Or should we have our good-bye kiss

I really don't want to lose you Chris

I know I will never find love like this

From the beginning I have loved you

Please just say you love me too

I will never forget when we first met

I fell in love and that was set

Please don't walk away

Please just stay....

HAHA: That was written two days before I broke up with him... God I am so glad I am back with him :) Going to the past is always fun.... Especially when you are back with that person!! 

Here are some fun old pictures of Chris and I :)

I hope you liked my spill from the past, have a great day!!

Kenzie Kristine <3